• Samantha Isaacs

The Struggle With Fear

Fear is a power struggle isn’t it.

I went to the Family Cafe for the first time, and I’m going to be super real with you about what happened.

At noon, after a 5 hour drive to Orlando, I stood in this hallway looking at this sign… and I just couldn’t do it. I couldn’t go any farther.

I stopped. I parked Hank wheelchair and just stood there.

This panic and overwhelmed feeling rushed me. I couldn’t talk. Or think. Or breathe. Just cry. I called my mom!

For 3 years, I’ve been fairly alone in this thing. I’ve not met another mom going through what I am. The only one I “know” lives in Australia. So finding my own way has been hard. I haven’t encountered many families with kids who have the needs that Hank has. I have met lots of families of kiddos with extra needs though and they’ve been such a blessing. This post isn’t to lessen what those relationships mean to me.

As I said, this was my first year going. Granted, I knew what Family Cafe was about. I think that in my mind, I didn’t “think” about what I was coming to. When I walked into the lobby and was met with wheelchairs. Equipment. Disabilities. Adults and Kids…

It was overwhelming. This anxiety took a hold.

It was like a tidal wave. I froze and I couldn’t go on. It’s such a weird feeling.

I wasn’t alone. For the first time, I was surrounded by so many families who “get it” and have been there. There were families walking by with adult children with special needs. There were little ones walking in their equipment. They were everywhere around me.

Having anxiety for a new situation is normal.

The fear of the unknown is fine. Even some tears are okay.

Everything I had going on in that moment was acceptable.

Giving up is not, though.

Cry the tears. Breathe in a deep breath of peace. Reset your mind. And take a step forward.

Do. Not. Stop. Moving. Forward.

Do you hear me….

Do. Not. Stop. Moving. Forward.

You did not come this far to only come this far. You have not held on this tight to let go now.

There is so.much. to be done in your life. Don’t let fear hold you back. Don’t let it win. Don’t be afraid to be a part of a new “family” and enjoy the similarities.

Go live guys. Go immerse yourselves. You can’t wait for the world to include you, you have to just go be a part of it.

Light and Love,


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